Not quite so great with follow through

I’m not doing so great at writing a few times a week as I originally planned; but something is better than nothing I suppose.

We finished a 3rd round of interviews for the open position in my office; my “right hand man”. We’ve been through this two other times, and bu the time we were able to offer the position, the candidate had found another job. It’s quite a process. And it’s even worse when I know that this is definitely a two person job, and were heading in to the 7th month of doing it solo.

It’s a big issue considering my best friend is due with her first baby; today. 8  months ago when she told me I put in for next week off with the end of this week being questionable. Original plan was for her to call when her water broke and I would drive down. It’s about an 8 hour drive to Nashville, and knowing that labors are usually not that fast… now, someone else with  more seniority has the week off starting Friday and returning the 8th. And then my boss is gone at the end of that week…. by then she will hopefully have had teaspoon; that’s not going to be his name, but what she’s been calling him. And even more so, she’ll probably already be up here by then. So the plan is to probably go back to Nashville with her after Easter.

It’s frustrating for sure. The upside I have a lot of vacation built up; and honestly it’s getting to the point that I need a break from work. No matter the headache that I come back to.

With work being crazy hectic, and my Scentsy business is doing quite well; along with training a new team-member, I’m not sure I have  much time for me. I’m really looking forward to a weekend with not much for plans.

Cody and the guys are opening for Jason Boland in Iowa City; so I’ll go to that show; and I have to deliver some Scentsy on Saturday. Pretty laid back. AMM has his daughter, not my place to interrupt that; they need their time.

Okay, it’s nearly 11:45 and I cannot fall asleep without reading a little bit; I need to go to bed!

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Not quite so great with follow through

Restful weekend.

What a relaxing, laid back weekend. It was just what I needed. I had to stop by the UPS Warehouse on my way home from work on Friday and was in for the night. I’m still catching up on DVR’d shows from January. I got a load of laundry done and was asleep pretty early.

I woke up at 9 on Saturday after a great, much needed night of sleep and lounged around til 11ish; decided to go get groceries, but stopped for breakfast at Village Inn first. Those hash browns are the way to my heart! I got a lot done in the afternoon, but also just lazed around.

Today I was supposed to go meet up with my family, minus Luke who’s in Italy for work, for lunch but we got a bunch of snow, so they decided against it. I finished up my laundry, cleaned my kitchen, baked some cookies, took a nap, and watched all four episodes of Chelsea Does. It’s quite an enlightening and awesome series. I cleaned off my car so it’s not so much work in the morning; glad I did that today; it took me about 20 minutes.

I think I’m gonna crawl into bed and find something on Netflix or read, and call it a night.

I really want to lose 15 pounds; that’s my first goal, and I know getting a decent night of sleep is a start. Small steps to get to a big goal.

This weekend is totally what I needed to go into this next few weeks of work…

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Restful weekend.

Overwhelmed

I am so overwhelmed and I don’t even know where to start.

At my day job there is one position that helps me; and my main boss; but it’s been vacant since the beginning of September. This position is the only other position that works til 5pm; therefore I cannot really take any vacation. Not only that but we’re busy; like way busy. The new freestanding Children’s Hospital is slated to be done at the end of 2016; and starting in a few months most things will be moved in and ‘done’ but training and such will happen before the big move in mid-December 2016.

Let’s throw in that mid-February is when we get to trickle down the end of the fiscal year (ends June 30); so we have a lot of spending to do at this time; and even when there’s two people doing it, it calls for working through some lunches, staying late… putting other things by the wayside.

My best friend is due February 24th; she’s in Nashville. I requested the two weeks from February 22-March 6th off tentatively; but hey guess what, someone else put in vacation through the 8th, so it’s a no go for me. It’s probably going to be the only child she is going to have and I really wanted to be with her through it all. While I don’t want her to be miserable, I’m hoping maybe she will go late…

My Scentsy business has really taken off; one of the girls on my team had a huge fundraiser, so I’ve helped her with that; a few hours of my time; last night I went after work (6ish) and didn’t get home til 10:30. I have another new team member but we’re not able to meet up and connect due to conflicting schedules lately.

I haven’t bartended for who knows how long and I honestly think I’m probably done with it. While I loved the money, but I definitely need the down time from the day job. It gives me time to work the Scentsy business, and ideally I hope to someday go down to 75% time at the day job.

I know everything happens for a reason, and sometimes we don’t understand the reasoning when said things are happening, and other cliché things to. Like you’re only given what you can handle; and I will agree, someone must think I’m a badass, cuz I feel like tapping out. I’m kind of really scared that the stress and not being able to sleep is going to end up bringing on a seizure. And at almost 8 ½ years seizure free; I really just cannot go through that. It would totally break me. I keep trying to make smart choices and hope and pray that it doesn’t come to that, but I’m not going to deny the worry is there.

I have no plans this weekend other than lunch with the family at 11 on Sunday. I plan on sleeping, and maybe a little reading.

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Overwhelmed

Grief

Grief is such a strange thing.

In the span of 7 months I lost both my Grandmas. One battled pancreatic cancer for 15 months (Grandma Joyce) and the other (Grandma Eva) had a tear in her heart that was only discovered when she thought she had the flu in a trip to the ER the day after Christmas; after a long 8+ hour surgery they were able to repair it, but after 10 days; her heart just wasn’t strong enough and she told us it was time.

Christmas Eve came and went, Ash and I cooked dinner at “Grandma’s” house that Brent bought; nothing much on the emotions; today, her 2nd birthday she’s been gone and bam, they hit me like a mac-fucking-truck. I don’t know if it’s because last year I was still in shock of it all not even being one-month fresh; or if Dad’s knee surgery on the same day occupied my mind; but today I’m having a helluva time.

Ashley shared a picture of her girls with Grandma’s wigs on; I cried at my desk. Jill shared a picture from my Timehop that I took 4 years ago, of a very little Treyden sitting on Grandma’s lap, and I cried. Tonight; I cleaned out the first Scentsy warmer Grandma ever had, used, and loved that I got back from Brent, and bawled. I’ve been reading the comments of all our posts about her.

I’ve kept myself busy, I’ve tried to call her a few times to wish her a happy birthday. I thought it would get easier. It doesn’t. I was much closer to her than with Grandma Joyce. Don’t get me wrong, I miss Grandma Joyce too, and I think about her quite often, she was so amazing to us and she didn’t even have to be. We just weren’t as close. I really regret that; because grandparents are special.

Tonight; today, often; I’m missing Grandma Eva. I think about a recipe or going somewhere, anywhere on a drive, I want to call her. I don’t think you ever “get over” someone being gone. You just learn to deal with it a bit more each day; and some days are uglier than others. Today, grief reared it’s ugly head.

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Grief

Crazy 10 Days

What a whirlwind this last 10 days has been. I spent the first 7 dog/house sitting for my parents; while they were on vacation. I didn’t turn on TV once, which is nice and weird all in the same. I utilize my DVR a lot. I also realized how; even with my laptop, my desk and everything in and around it make my business go; without it I feel a bit lost.

I was able to come home for one day before I took off for Minneapolis on Friday morning. I spent the afternoon with my friend Karan we did a little shopping; okay we went to Barnes & Noble, then walked through the whole mall to Target, then back, then went to grab some food with Chris! From there I went downtown. I’m not a big fan of big city driving.  I got my car handed off to valet; so worth the extra money vs parking it myself, and checked in and was asleep a few hours later.

I was up bright and early for our annual 1-day Scentsy World Tour – this event used to be called Spring Sprint; but a fresh new name. It’s a training that starts at 9am and goes til 5pm. The home office team comes, and has new product on display; of course we get an awesome product kit; with contents valued more than it cost for the training. Regional consultants have break out sessions and then a closing session. Every one that I have been to Heidi and Orville Thompson; President and CEO have been to. They were in New Hampshire in the morning and I just had a feeling they were going to be at ours. There are 30 stops in the US and Canada alone; they do a few throughout Mexico, Spain, France, Austria, New Zealand, Germany and Australia! It’s always such a fun day. I didn’t know anyone who was going; but there was some people from my “group” who I met through our monthly training; so I met up with them, it was nice to have someone to eat and sit with.

The drive home was interesting. I had no problem getting out of the city; even though I was a bit nervous. I had plenty of gas to get about 45 miles out to stop and fill my tank. About 10 minutes after getting gas, it started to rain and the temperature was hanging around 32-34 degrees and I started to panic. The rain would go from heavy to light to none. I’d get nervous and think about just getting a hotel at the next exit, then it’d be dry. So I would convenience myself, just get to the next big city; and finally I was home. That 4 1/2 hour drive seemed like 12! I took a bath and crawled in bed. I slept for a good 10 hours; in my own bed!

As I mentioned, I hadn’t been home for 10 days, so I needed groceries; and we have a big snow storm predicted to come our way; the numbers keep changing, but time will tell; I dreaded going to the store. I just couldn’t put it off. I want to go Caucus tomorrow after work.

This afternoon and evening I’ve been doing laundry and getting my apartment put back together; though it’s still a work in progress; that I can finish this week. Everyone knows, laundry doesn’t always get put away right away.

I promoted to Star Consultant today with Scentsy; this is something I didn’t think would happen until the fall, so I was pleased that I was able to make it happen so fast this year already. 2016 is taking off quite well for me and my Scentsy business.

A few things to note; my Scentsy fans; almost all items are 10% off in February, so if you are looking to stock up on your wax, bars are $3.75/each when you do the 6-pack!

8pm and I’m already looking forward to bed.

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Crazy 10 Days